I always tell people to not get sad
When someone dies,
Because they are in a better place, right?
But I don’t know more of a better place
Than being in their arms
And I know for a fact that
I’m not anymore.
I’m not mad about the fact that
They’re dead,
I’m mad about the fact that
I’m not.
I’m mad that they’re happy without me,
I’m mad that they’ve moved on,
I’m mad that I still can’t.
I’m mad that I still cry,
Even when they’re not there to wipe my tears,
Or to say cheers
When I win.
Or to pick me up
When I fall.
I know it’s not their fault
But it isn’t mine either.
I just wish I had hugged them tighter,
For one last time.
And I know that my thoughts are in vain,
That I can never touch them again.
They are only ever in my dreams,
And I’ll wake up each time and scream,
Realizing,
They are only ever in my dreams.