Spoken Word Poem: Shadow’s Silent Screams
Spoken Word Poem: Shadow’s Silent Screams
This other day I saw an old shadow dancing on the shabby walls of its prison
I glanced at the shadow as its chapped and cracked lips kissed the walls with its gracious smile
A smile that illuminated the darkest corners of the room
Sending waves and rays that crept through my skin
Radiating the love and care I would only find in a broken soul
At that moment, I felt my whole body slumping, losing its stiff posture
I was free
But that’s the emblematic thing about this shadow
She has found a way to shield the cold shivers with a sheath of her warm smile
Setting everyone free from their yoke while she remains a slave in her bitter-sweet tragedy
I fixed my intent gaze on the shadow, and there it was
The pain and no gain
Plain as day
Written all over its wrinkled body and swollen face
Beneath her warm smile is a deep well of misery
A voice wanting to be heard
A heart that’s marked with scary scars from the pangs of despised love
A heart that is hurting from the hate she has suffered
The rejection and dejection
So she shies away from the loud and proud crowds
And hides in the dark shadows of her backyard
But it’s been there in her eyes all this while
She has been bleeding from within
Just that I didn’t see, you didn’t see; we didn’t see
We didn’t hear her silent wails when she lost her mother as a toddler
Neither did we console the bereaved girl when she was trying so hard to surmount the seemingly insurmountable grief
We ignored her groans when she was left behind bars while others were blessed and graced with the keys to success
We didn’t bother the sprinkle and trickle of her tears
We turned a blind eye when she was married off to a man older than her father
“Lucky her!” Society claims
For God’s sake, she was only thirteen
Do you even wonder how she is doing now?
No, you don’t!
Because if had you taken the audacity to ask her
She would unveil her masked ructions
If you had cared to wear her shoes or bear her cross, even just for a moment
Then you would discover what’s undercover her warm smile
But you were too busy walking robotically through your routines
Too busy to notice that half of her face is swollen
Not that she had an allergy as she claims
These are marks of a beast’s fist feasting on her body once a week, twice on Sunday, thrice when he is drunk, four times
when he is guilty of something
She did try to soften his heart of stone by being a “wifey material”
Only to receive an endless crippling affliction to her weary flesh as a reward for being decent and docile
That one time she found a tune to her own voice she came crumbling, shouting for help
Only to find you mumbling that “it’s within their nature!”
But you were the uncle that she trusted
And you left her to stumble in her troubles
So she has found a way to conceal all the raucous inside herself
Right now she’s standing on a mountain of despair
Perplexed, persecuted, struck down but not crushed
She is clinging and grasping to a stone of hope
But her hands are bleeding from the sharp blades of the stone of hope
She is losing her grip slowly
And if she falls
Her blood is on your hands
Killing or letting die
All the same
We are all murderers
By Daisy Kudzai Tsenesa